I have been thin and I have been out of shape. I have seen abundance and I have lived in misery. I have been at parties and I have been alone. I have worked & made money and I have been out of work. I have been loved and I have been hated. I have lied and I have been lied to. I have been cared for and I have been abandoned. I have seen success and I have endured failure & rejection. I have laughed uncontrollably and I have tasted tears.
After all that I have seen of life, the days that actually matter and are etched in my memory are the ones when I shared a smile with someone, shared a meal, laughed endlessly over a silly joke, when I made a promise I meant to keep, when dreams came true, when others kept their promises.
When someone waited for me at the dinner table, worried when I got home late, when a seemingly uneventful day became important when talked about with someone.
When someone waited for me at the dinner table, worried when I got home late, when a seemingly uneventful day became important when talked about with someone.
The days when a pat on the back brought tears to my eyes, when appreciations exceeded expectations. When I earned and saved for those trendy shoes! When the Samosa in the college canteen tasted better than any other dish in the entire world. When harmless flirting after college hours was the highlight of the day.
When I welcomed rain with open arms and asked Mom to make my favorite sweet dish just at the very hint of clouds in the sky. Days when having a power cut in school meant singing, snacks and fun. The childhood days spent in my native village eating, playing and getting scolded by older cousins and uncles & aunts for being mischievous.
The days when my pain made someone sad and my happiness brought joy to someone else’s life as well. The days when a hug meant comfort and holding hands reassurance, when friends forgave. When I sacrificed for someone’s happiness and when someone did that for me. When someone’s mere presence made my worries disappear.
The days I read my favorite books and went for my evening walks. The days and nights spent with sisters watching TV, chatting nonstop, shopping and sharing so much more and finding happiness in life’s little joys. The days I spent studying hard for exams and then waited for the results with bated breath. The days of school and college annual days and Youth Festivals when I felt alive while performing live in front of thousands of people. The evenings spent with friends getting drunk and making big plans for the life yet to come.
The day I got over my fear of dogs and let Nonu lick my face. The day my niece was born and the day she said that she loves me too! :-)
The day I got over my fear of dogs and let Nonu lick my face. The day my niece was born and the day she said that she loves me too! :-)
The days he said that I looked beautiful and made me giggle and blush. The days love ruled my world and made me dizzy with joy. The days when I shared my insecurities with someone without the fear of being judged or ridiculed. The days when silence comforted my soul.
No matter how miserable or ugly life might seem sometimes, these are the moments that will keep me going and these are the days that will always truly matter.
I pray that after another 30 years, when I look back, I will have thousands of these days to think, write and smile about.
I pray that after another 30 years, when I look back, I will have thousands of these days to think, write and smile about.
