The Ocean Of Life - October 5, 1999

I sat on the shore, had a time of mirth

I looked at the coming waves, as if it was my birth.

Slowly I entered, with hope and enthusiasm

The sea was in full swing, like a flower in blossom.

The deeper I went, the nearer was the treasure

But the depth of the sea was hard to measure.

The treasure was rich and the mysteries unknown,

Not much was different, but the shrubs had grown.

Wave by wave I went by, touching the sun of the noon

All the birds flew off, when came the midnight moon.

Then the tide met the sunset, stroked with rocks to and fro

It was its final destination, it was the ultimate rendezvous.

A College Going Girl - August 31, 1998

For a college going girl life’s a colorful mystery,

She has a choice to study psychology or opt for history.

She is not restricted to attend the classes,

But if her lectures fall short, the authority harasses.

She is free to move here and there,

In the canteen, corridor and stairs.

She’s got the freedom to wear whatever she likes,

Jeans, skirts, trousers or tights!

She can grow her nails and wear all shades of enamel,

She can loosen her hair or tie ‘em up like the tail of a big camel.

Putting bright lipsticks and carrying the latest of bags,

No time for books, she’s happier reading mags.

For the whole day she’s found dancing in the campus,

Wearing a new cloth everyday is the symbol of her status.

The life of a college going girl is full of entertainment

But is this the way it should be lead, I ask your comment!

Teenage - August 23, 1998

I am a little kid of five,

My dreams are real and no disguise.

I wonder what it is all about,

But there’s no one to clear by doubts.

I often dream of a marshy land,

Where I go deep none holds my hand.

The voices around go vague and low,

I don’t know where am I to go!

Buried in the deep from head to toe,

Got no friend around, not even a foe.

My mind is baffled as the place is not acquainted,

I get a bit scared as it seems to be haunted.

Lonely I wonder here and there,

Crying aloud in the hope, that a word I may hear.

I try my best to reveal the concealed,

Alas! Everything around seems permanently sealed.

Suddenly all the things start to tremble,

And it looks like time’s great gamble.

And yes I know where I have reached,

Here all are self consumed and mouths stitched.

This scene of my life’s drama, is set on a different stage,

Here I am, in my Teenage!

Rain - April 1998

Rain O Rain!

It reminds me of something, passing through the narrow memory lane.

It takes me back to my school,

Where, I and my friends jumped in the small water pools.

Those were the moments of real joy and mirth,

When, we could have the smell of the fresh wet earth.

Getting wet in the real showers

Faces happy and cheerful, like blooming flowers.

But now all the friends are far apart,

They have given their lives a new start.

I alike have no leisure,

So I look at the falling drops and miss those moments of pleasure.

I wish I could be a kid again,
Then no would take me away from my dear rain!

You Are My Love - October 1997

The tender love I hold for you

Words could never describe,

The way I care for you

I can never make you realize.

How much I long for you,

You can never know,

My love for you seems to

Always grow and grow.

You are in the moonlit night

And in the rising sun,

I am yearning for the day

We would be one.

You are in my thoughts and dreams

And always in my heart,

With your name I go to bed

With the same the new day starts.

You are the one I love so much

You are the one I care for,

You can make my life worthwhile

You are my destiny’s star.

Inspiration - August 1997

All my hopes were shattered
I was feeling so bad,
I was worried about my life
That how it would be lead.

I was badly disappointed
My heart was broken in two,
Then suddenly I heard a voice
Asking why so unhappy are you!

I looked here and there
Trying to find from where the voice had come,
Who was trying to awaken my soul
Like the rising sun.

The voice was echoing to catch my dreams
And to create a new vision in the mind,
Then no one would dare to rise against me
Whether the inner tempest or the outer wind.

I thought over the words
And I was inspired by them,
A new hope sprang in my heart
The words acted as a gem.

I now found the secret behind
My real inspiration,
It was the voice of the God inside me
That had helped in my creation!

The Days That Matter

I have been thin and I have been out of shape. I have seen abundance and I have lived in misery. I have been at parties and I have been alone. I have worked & made money and I have been out of work. I have been loved and I have been hated. I have lied and I have been lied to. I have been cared for and I have been abandoned. I have seen success and I have endured failure & rejection. I have laughed uncontrollably and I have tasted tears.

After all that I have seen of life, the days that actually matter and are etched in my memory are the ones when I shared a smile with someone, shared a meal, laughed endlessly over a silly joke, when I made a promise I meant to keep, when dreams came true, when others kept their promises.

When someone waited for me at the dinner table, worried when I got home late, when a seemingly uneventful day became important when talked about with someone.

The days when a pat on the back brought tears to my eyes, when appreciations exceeded expectations. When I earned and saved for those trendy shoes! When the Samosa in the college canteen tasted better than any other dish in the entire world. When harmless flirting after college hours was the highlight of the day.

When I welcomed rain with open arms and asked Mom to make my favorite sweet dish just at the very hint of clouds in the sky. Days when having a power cut in school meant singing, snacks and fun. The childhood days spent in my native village eating, playing and getting scolded by older cousins and uncles & aunts for being mischievous.

The days when my pain made someone sad and my happiness brought joy to someone else’s life as well. The days when a hug meant comfort and holding hands reassurance, when friends forgave. When I sacrificed for someone’s happiness and when someone did that for me. When someone’s mere presence made my worries disappear.

The days I read my favorite books and went for my evening walks. The days and nights spent with sisters watching TV, chatting nonstop, shopping and sharing so much more and finding happiness in life’s little joys. The days I spent studying hard for exams and then waited for the results with bated breath. The days of school and college annual days and Youth Festivals when I felt alive while performing live in front of thousands of people. The evenings spent with friends getting drunk and making big plans for the life yet to come.

The day I got over my fear of dogs and let Nonu lick my face. The day my niece was born and the day she said that she loves me too! :-)

The days he said that I looked beautiful and made me giggle and blush. The days love ruled my world and made me dizzy with joy. The days when I shared my insecurities with someone without the fear of being judged or ridiculed. The days when silence comforted my soul.

No matter how miserable or ugly life might seem sometimes, these are the moments that will keep me going and these are the days that will always truly matter.
I pray that after another 30 years, when I look back, I will have thousands of these days to think, write and smile about.